God I feel lonely. And I've been mourning your "loss" for the last 5 years and I don't know what I've done wrong but I'm sorry. And I miss you. And I'm sorry that I left you, I'm sorry if I wasn't there when you needed me, I'm just sorry if I couldn't understand so much of it. I'm sorry but I don't know what I've done wrong so I can't fix it. I'm really sorry
God I feel fucking lonely today.
